Thanks for all the comments on my last blog. I am feeling much better. I suppose in the grand scale of things I was never feeling that bad, because lets face it, a couple of bad sober days are never as bad as drunk, hungover ones… But still, it’s good to be out of that place.
One thing that kept me going when everything else failed was the idea of having to reset my sobriety app. Honestly, it’s ridiculous how much I love that app. It really appeals to the perfectionist in me and I would hate to go back to Day 1. I’ve always been the kind of person who does something really well or not at all. (So I suspect if I did relapse I’d apply the same logic and would go on a huge bender).
Sometimes I forget to check the app for a while, or I work nights and get a bit lost with the days, and it’s always so nice to check it and see that it’s just been quietly counting away. (Day 120 by the way)
I am reading the Sober Revolution by Lucy Rocca at the moment (thanks for the suggestion Lily). Lucy set up Soberistas – a website I stumbled across last December. It was one of those ‘ah ha’ moments when I realised that other people drank exactly the way I did and were worried about it too. In fact some people seemed to drink less than me but they’d decided to stop anyway. It was enlightening.
Lucy’s book is really, really good and I’d recommend it to anyone who’s thinking of stopping drinking, or who needs a reminder of why it’s a brilliant thing to do. I love the way she compares alcohol to a bad boyfriend – you keep going back for more even though he’s making you feel like shit.
Here’s a piece of good news to end on. A few days ago I got my electricity bill for May to the beginning of August (I pay mine quarterly). I was sorting it out online when I noticed that it was thirty quid cheaper than last year’s bill. Same flat, exact same time period, same payment plan. In fact I think if anything, electricity bills have gone up since then, haven’t they?
Probably after I’ve posted this I’ll remember that I got rid of some huge, energy guzzling appliance in April… But I’m sure I didn’t. And I haven’t suddenly become really energy conscious. I went away for a week in June, but I did that last year too. Last summer the weather was rubbish but I didn’t have the heating on or anything like that. So there can only be one conclusion folks: getting sober reduces your electricity bills.
When I was drunk I did have a habit of putting things in the (electric) oven and then passing out, waking much later to discover burnt food. I’d also have the TV on for hours and hours. I was either drinking and watching TV or I was slumped in front of it hungover, watching mindless rubbish.
Nowadays I actually remember to turn the oven off. I don’t watch as much crap TV either. My newfound ability to Get Things Done means that even if I’m at home all evening I probably won’t sit in front of the TV all night because I’ll have other things to do.
So, there you have it – one benefit you probably hadn’t considered before!